Mar
18
today stunk. it started early in the morning when i was still in bed having nightmares... that are still haunting me. after that i got up a little early to go to chapel and left my straightener on and nearly burnt down my dorm. then my head started hurting. on
top of all that i have a big paper due tomorrow and a lot of stuff to do before then. we had to put our photos up on photography today on the wall (mine are in the tallest row of photos) and my photographer liked my work, but thought she'd make a big deal about the white speck in my cats eye... saying that it was a scratch on the negative and that i should be more careful- even though that speck is actually ON my cats eye... it always has been...
i stopped breathing for a second today... it think it may have been a panic attack. the second that happened, i stopped walking towards a class, turned around, and headed straight for the chapel. if you aren't from valpo and are reading this, google image search "Chapel of the
Resurrection, Valparaiso". this place is beautiful. the altar is HUGE and beautiful... and it has this sculpture of Christ rising from a cross... has purple draped on it because of lent. anyway, i went up to the altar and sat on the floor around the corner. the second i was settled and looked up at what was in front of me i just bawled. i think i needed that cry... and it made me feel a world better once i left the chapel and started walking to class again... it was like God was walking WTIH me again instead of floating above me... ya know.
Lord, keep with me.
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He's with you dear.
I'm so sorry you were going through all this today, I had no idea. I love you. Praying for you.
*hugs*
-JZ